9/5 energy read

you may feel like today is lowkey dog eat dog. like i had to get someone before they get me. “i’m not a killer but don’t push me.”

i feel like people around you have always expected you to people please so you feel very selfish for your actions, but it’s justified against who did it. you didn’t go about it morally in the right way but who cares 😭 trying to play by the book with this person is pointless as they have already went against you in a way that also defies the rules. You surpassed their madness and it gagged them as you won. you wouldn’t have succeeded by being civil or waiting your turn.

i feel like you really love your freedom and feel much peace despite the violence it took to get you here, mostly because whatever is gone you know is dead for good. i get this energy of a newborn baby, so you could have a new child or a new project that has just been completed or released that has to be protected and will benefit from your material stability. you may also feel like where you chose to settle down was premature or the first place you could find but its perfect. i’m reminded of the actor who played arnez on one on one, saying that he began acting solely because he was avoiding gang violence on a random day. he walked into a acting school solely to avoid an altercation because it was the first door he saw. finding your fate by accident or avoiding a greater authority and making it all the way out. i also see successfully leaving an abuser especially if you had plans that never really materialized before, though you kept making them.

you may be a little reluctant to start something new or embrace that this freedom isn’t temporary. you may be used to having to return to this person or place after just weeks alone buts that’s not true. i honestly feel like you could feel this housing is transitory because you are going to eventually be moved to a totally different place altogether especially if you already made a big jump to a city or state that’s at least two hours from where you started. i do see this as a new country, i wouldn’t be surprised if this was an island off the main coast of a country as well, like moving to hawaii as someone who lives in idaho for example.