energy read 2/10

i get this energy of feeling like you dont have an emergency contact.

your new life is fully underway but i feel like today it can hit you that you have no one to rely on. i dont feel like you’re in a place where you couldn’t pay for help, but to know that you would have to pay or need kindness from a stranger would be humbling. you’re realizing the need for good friends and chosen family and you seem to have none. this could even be someone getting into your head about starting over to try to convince you to come back home or return.

my advice? calm down, the teacher always appears when the student is ready. also, do you want to return to these people if you fought so hard to leave in the first place? just beware of someone successfully creating an insecurity around being alone when you can take care of yourself, and these priceless people will come eventually. it seems like despair about it. but also think, could i have relied on these people even when they were around? no? you’ll make it through, again. lol.