“lovers & friends”

i reminisce sunlit days playing in curly hair on a foreign beach

shared lipgloss and giggles that you steal away from me

never to relinquish our summer, our love was just fleeting

i’ve found a lover who is my everything

about myself, i feel i know nothing

and i wonder what that says about me

swapping midnights of her perfume for his cologne

i’m sick to my stomach, it chills me to my bones

for you to think i’d deny or regret it

none of the love we shared was inauthentic

it’s just, he’s got a soul that is my ultimate

i last loved you under a full moon

we came to the same culmination soon

my love isn’t swift at all, unlike her phases

it remains for whoever’s intention is the greatest

compulsory? maybe. complicated? absolutely.

and suddenly, my life is changing…

i’ve never had a lover move mountains so i can reach

and teach me their language every time they put their mouth on me

grant my wishes like the perfect genie

make every waking moment feel like daydreaming

if you knew what he was capable of, i know you’d see

last night, i dreamt of the last night i saw you asleep

i used to be full of energy, up for hours fawning over our chemistry

but what can i say when he brings the calm to me

so who am i to apologize for a lover who was destined

you were my love, he just became my lover and best friend

and i fear it’s until the end