pick an image: what is blocking you?

intuitively choose from:

pile 1 (fuschia sequins),

pile 2 (a hot pink forest)

or pile 3 (magenta flowers.)

not everything will resonate with everyone! enjoy the entertainment and meditate on what will be at play in your life. book a personal for an in depth reading!

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1:

you’re being blocked by your own beliefs, likely given to you by a mother or mother figures. with the servant and judge aligning with the seven of swords and princess of wands, you’re someone who has been conditioned to serve others essentially, and feel shame if you don’t give into codependent nature because those around you judge and LOUDLY so. you could naturally and easily defy these ideals, though you give in to pressure at some point to serve them. with the princess of wands i wouldn’t be surprised if you were very beautiful or highly sexually appealing and you had a mother figure who is very jealous of this potential and intends to thwart your growth, trying to “tame you”, believing you are a wild child or directionless. which is very true, but you’ve been kind of stolen away from your potential so you hang in an awkward balance of knowing where you’re meant to be or what you deserve, but never really being comfortable or stable enough on your own to move there. it’s odd, i feel almost a cinderella energy. you could be a virgo/earth placement, i’m hearing aries/fire sign as well. it’s like you are a flame and people pray that you stay small because they’ve seen how they can get burned trying to mess with you. you make people insecure due to your confident and intelligent nature and they’ve made you see this as a personal flaw, as if you’re “too much” to bind you, rather than something to nurture and be proud of. this is definitely jealousy and forcing you into an underdog position because they know you already outdo them, you just might not have all the materials to be fully independent so they kick you where they can. it’s interesting, it’s still not like there is a lack here, it’s just you not believing you have it all or can be more than they’ve told you you are, though your actions can say otherwise. you really should move or take action if and when possible.

your mom could be a pastor/priest/religious leader, a spiritualist, an intuitive or just very religious and this really affects how you see yourself and your own beliefs, with the mother and high priestess cards. for you specifically, becoming a mother or parent yourself is going to be an extremely enlightening experience you should look forward to. (assistance, birthing). you have an intuition where you can make extremely wild guesses and be spot on, even with a lack of information as to why you feel or think a certain way. likely because you have a mother figure who has taught you insecurity, high expectations or levels of idealism, or overthinking because she has been emotionally void on purpose. your overthinking has gifted you with this ability to analyze and read through things because you’re used to the blocks being placed on your expression. (seven of swords, princess of wands, high priestess, mother, priest.)

your sexuality is meant to be a guide. with the two of swords, you might hold a lot of shame that is masked as apathy possibly due to being traumatized over your sexuality, either due to the experience itself or the way you’ve seen people speak about you after finding out you’ve had an experience. but with the femme fatale, mentor, and queen of cups, being sexual is actually the perfect way to ground your high intuition. i wouldn’t be surprised if you had a specific partner who teaches you a lot about your tastes and what confidence is, or someone guiding you about your sexuality as well with the mentor card. i wouldn’t be surprised if you were someone who thinks maybe you hear or see things so there is an illness going on (don’t get me wrong, i’m not a medical professional, so take this with a grain of salt) but you definitely see and sense things because of strong spiritual connection. you are perfect at making wild guesses but you likely don’t have a grounded understanding of this higher power, and being comfortable in your body is going to give you that power back. a lack of sexuality could be deluding you because it reveals the most physical extent of you denying yourself pleasure, comfort confidence or contentment, so you may struggle to accept good things if you feel they don’t reinforce the insecurities you have about yourself. the thing is, those are only preconceived notions formed by others that you’ve internalized and your overthinking can exasperate. i also feel like sexuality will help you see yourself as more beautiful, although you already are very, very attractive (queen of cups); though you probably don’t inherently believe it too much or for too lomg with this watery energy. i’m feeling maybe you are trans or some gender nonconforming person who could lean more into presenting womanhood/femininity. being cis could still apply here; maybe you were a tomboy or had other people tell you you were unattractive/too masculine looking as a child or even recently, when you are actually gorgeous and highly feminine. but anyone with eyes can see you are an attractive person, even if you are not the perfect replication of a societal standard. your connection to your intuition will give you a mental place to really know how to be confident in yourself and not let other people’s opinions throw you off as easily because you fully realize your own beliefs about yourself and your place in the world.

people around you don’t want you to believe in yourself because they are intimidated by the fact they know you are better than them. (22 - cosmos of the heart in reverse, 44 - birth of angels). these people definitely want to keep you in an insecure mindset, because i’d say you’re the kind of person that once you find comfort in a space you always make it flourish. it’s more beneficial for them to keep you small so that they reap the benefits of your hardworking nature and spiritual power. if you go elsewhere, i’m hearing you could light up the whole world, or charge them up like a battery. i’m seeing an iphone 100% charged symbol. you have immense power and there are people who benefit from your work praying you underrate yourself, or saying things to remind you to underrate yourself as a way of sabotage. they want you, a person they see as so powerful, to submit to their ideals about the world, as if when you believe them they know they are living right. that is your strength. it’s like you have the power to validate people’s morals or ideas in an influential way in which they both desperately want validation from you, but also want to steal this away or keep it to themselves. but i also want to say, as wicked as they might be, these people are so lazy spiritually that they can’t even sabotage you in a concrete manner if you so much as see yourself in a better light and move on from them lol. their insecurities might be so fragile that they could sabotage themselves at the sight of your success because they’ve gotten off on oppressing you for so long, feeling that if they were better than you, that meant they had some power. they might say or think otherwise, but they are not the powerhouses they try to convince you they are. they may seem more stable than you in life now, but you have the kind of ideals that provide stability for lifetimes and generations. just wait. you’ll definitely be leaving a few people in the dust and they will never grow from there no matter how they say you may need them. call it karma, or maybe they were just reaping what they were sowing by calling you lazy and overly sexual, yet never doing any of the work to be a better person themselves 🤷🏾‍♀.

you were meant to be a shining light, a beauty, a truly inspiring and influential creator. definitely wealthy/rich as well with the queen of pentacles on the bottom. don’t let the money make you. the greatness of your art speaks for itself and opens up new worlds or genres entirely. i’m thinking of basquiat. truly influential in modern art and times stylistically.

golden - jill scott.

(companion, queen of pentacles, 1 - creation.)

2:

with the write card i’m getting immediately your job is blocking you. but i feel like you are someone who struggles with drug use or is very addicted to being around people. it’s almost like you see either drugs or people as heavenly, as a way to connect with God for some reason. you might think that you are doing God’s work or serving humanity with what you have to say/being to the table. (34 - red native, 24 - vibrational, 23 - magical, 43 - universal connection, 39 - intuitive guide.)

i’m hearing euphoria and sam levinson. maybe you’re really inspired by this show or his writing, maybe you’re sam levinson himself? 😭 maybe you’re trying to create something as iconic or popular. maybe you actually work or write for this show or work with television or plays. maybe your life is full of drama. maybe the actual feeling of euphoria is relevant with drug use or searching for pleasurable experiences through people. maybe you’re a big fan, or their storylines are similar to your life. maybe you’d like to be on the show one day. i’ve said that euphoria fans can be insatiable when it comes to what they expect from the show, even though things should progress naturally because it reflects real life. maybe you have really high expectations and this is your sense of euphoria, being able to discuss them. you could be a critic or do reviews. maybe you have an over analytical side that can border irrationality or just plain hatred.

with this knight energy, you’re someone who lives for the applause. i’m hearing the song by lady gaga. with the saboteur, 5 of cups and the ace of swords, you may completely rely on people’s acknowledgement of your accomplishments to feel anything. you could constantly be in a state of apathy or numbness. you could be an earth placement, especially a capricorn. you’re relying on your work completely to validate you. and with the fool energy, even when you get some sort of acknowledgement, instead of being happy, you may turn that into an opportunity to work more, never really being confident in the moment or taking a break/time to rest. you may be suffering from constantly having to create muses or experiences out of your real life, to the point you have no reality or comfort if there’s no drama or new thing to idealize. you struggle to remain in the moment with yourself. drugs can further exasperate this. with the damsel and the networker i’m hearing “leak to the press”, like you’d maybe do anything to get some attention or people talking. this includes entering relationships, betraying confidences or creating friendships possibly for PR, validation or attention. you might be prone to cheating, having lots of sex/sexual partners, “stealing” people’s significant others/dating after people who trusted you, or remaining in relationships with people you actually hate, similar to euphoria. maybe you’re someone who doesn’t even enjoy this energy, but can’t help but do it. you may feel like you have to do things for attention, or you really don’t get enough attention.

you may also find that you cannot keep your life hidden if that’s what you’d prefer. or that other people constantly steal/use your energy for content. people could use you as some sort of drug. you might have a stalker, you might be prone to stalking? you might believe someone has done magic on you or purposely thwarted your life plans. i’m getting pisces energy, some aquarius. i honestly feel like you’re definitely deluded about your sense of importance and want to make it seem like people are overly invested in you (especially with the claim of magic) when you are actually overly invested in trying to make people codependent over you through your actions. i’m hearing “looking for a moment”. (alchemist, mystic, slave). your delusions could feed your creativity but also bind you to low vibrations in real time, so even if it took you somewhere, you’d still never be happy. you might not even know how to get where you want to be or have very unrealistic life plans. not that having dreams is unrealistic, but you might dream for positions you’re not qualified for at all, like wanting to direct a show like euphoria for the clout, but not being a writer, reader or interested in filmography/directing/producing outside of watching. you could be prone to making very rash or illegal decisions for temporary moments of peace that follow you in the long run. you might be just facing your own “karma” for your own actions and that is why nothing in your life really moves forward.

i think with the seven of cups you are obsessed with having it all or being everything to everyone. maybe certain foundational relationships in your life abandoned you, so you try to be important to everyone else to make up for the fact you don’t even feel like you matter to yourself. especially with this knight here, but no other court cards. you could be dealing with overcompensation due to being orphaned by your family/parents or abandoned often. i’m also hearing you could be a compulsive liar, but you really don’t want people to see or hear about these things even though you continue to lie and will default to it most times.

my greatest advice to you with the four of cups and ten of pentacles is to actually stay home and stay away from people. be bored and to yourself for a while. spirit has given you what you wanted and will continue to give you what you want because your love for art is most likely amazing, but you only ruin yourself in the ways that you’ve been planning, creating, speaking and socializing thus far. maybe you’re not an artist or want an art career but would gain alot from just enjoying art as a hobby. you definitely try to live vicariously through the people you are around or art you experience, so you’ll befriend most anyone you think can make your life exciting, but you don’t even understand what you like about yourself, much less the world, so these relationshops could end up shallow/promising a lot and doing very little. i also want to say that taking a break/separating yourself from people isn’t going to make you a flop or irrelevant. in fact, you might be surprised how great of a time you can have in the home, being quiet, taking things slow, finding oneself. you have to stop trying to delude everyone about your place in society because you really make your energy hard to like, and at the least, understand, by trying to be everything and overly important. please find a way to genuinely relax and not focus on anything, especially being creative or working. be boring for a little bit. being exciting all the time is actually draining you and leading you further from what you need most.

with the vampire on the bottom, you are genuinely ruining yourself trying to steal energy or be in the mix all the time as the people you are around may steal your energy. also, please reach out to someone if you’re struggling with depression or unsafe thoughts. you are loved. you just have to learn how to love yourself without overworking or trying to make your accomplishments or friendships your identity. it’s your responsibility to be there for yourself. having loads of attention and friends will never change a deep insecurity. in fact, it often can make things worse to know you are not supported in the ways you need but have so many people around. you don’t have to drown yourself to exist.

3:

you’re definitely giving me virgo energy with the recognition and caretaker, wanting to be recognized for your work. it’s so interesting, i also feel like you can be prone to micromanaging things. like if i do X then i deserve Y, which is very formulaic in nature. you might be prone to making these wagers with God almost. like “if you were real, you would do _,” or ”i’ve done _, so why am i not recieving _?” not knowing that doubt can further ruin a situation spirit couldve been planning to fulfill immediately if you were sure of yourself and that much more confident it would be fulfilled.

you could be very headstrong and have great ideas, but lack on execution or following ideas through when things get turbulent. it’s so interesting, in these archetypes, you talk a lot but you never really have anything concrete going for you. you overthink a lot, maybe to the point where you can only speak, look and bully others but never actually accomplish anything. you could also be someone who has been working on a project for a long time but are only recently being able to make it concrete, like squid game. i also sense that with the poet card, you could be doing one kind of work that is actually beneficial, but you may underrate this because you only see it as a hobby or a part time thing, though you are very great at it. you probably look for other things that require so much more work or that you could be forcing completely. like for example, someone with a college degree reading tarot for a living is a wild jump. this might be why you struggle with execution, because you abandon what works naturally for things that seem loftier, especially because you know you can create whatever reality you want and you want the finer things and status. which is fine, but you create discord by not following what’s natural and then saying that nothing is working when you genuinely had a perfect outcome, it just wasn’t your ideal. you could also create discord by then saying you want the higher ideal, but then suddenly jerking back from it because it requires so much. (libra placement, much?)

with the six of wands, six of pentacles, the magician and the emperor, it‘s like you capable of everything you desire, but with the knight of cups, you could be watering a false dream i’m hearing, or it’s a matter of what you choose to water because everything grows better over time, if only you let it (three of wands). like you have a life that is so abundant either way. you can have the ideal, you can have what is easy, it’s just a matter of pouring into them and allowing them to flourish, especially if it takes some time to be stable.

you might feel like you’re alienated from something that you don’t want to fit into, but seeing other people get certain rewards in those paths makes you want to pivot. like a label artist vs. an independent artist. label artists could get more coverage, but you enjoy the freedom of being independent and everything you create is your own. a lack of sales or budgeting still might haunt you, though. it might be that you want a very high reward for work but you only want to maintain at a certain level. it’s like you want michael jackson level success or even deserve that, but you only want the notoriety of a niche micro celebrity or only do that much promo, and that’s not how it works. you may be limiting yourself because you like a certain limit actually, but then you’re upset when you don’t get more rewards. they say heavy is the head that bears the crown, so you would like a tiara because it’s more comfortable, but then you’re upset that you only have a tiara when you see the size of the crown. you’re very indecisive to the point you almost don’t see why you should bother at all.

i don’t think you actually have an outside block, you’re just indecisive about how much you expect from yourself. if you want large amounts of success, go after it. but also understand that just like you said, if i do X then i should be able to recieve Y. that also deals with the shadow sides of things. you can go #1 if you wish, but then when you have to do #1 promo, videos, interviews, traveling, and deal with #1 haters and discussions, don’t be too upset. if you want to live a more quiet, regular paced life, you can’t be upset that your work and status is likely going to be underrated compared to people who are willing to do #1 work. you might struggle with what makes you comfortable vs. what is the “best” outcome or what can get you the most. no one else can define that for you. but if you want it all, there are sacrifices just as choosing normalcy sacrifices opportunities.

i wouldn’t be surprised if a miracle did happen for you, but you’d have to choose the option that isn’t as safe or basic, especially if the output isn’t that great to you when you play it safe. my advice actually is to do both things you’re aspiring to and not limit yourself at all. keep the mundane around so that you have something to look forward to when the over the top energy is exhausting and vice versa.

your work will be appreciated on any level you share it at, so the grass is never truly greener on the other side. but if you deal with less you receive less, you deal with more you recieve more. it’s just about being happy with how much you work really, because either way you are the kind of person who is taken care of regardless. it’s like you could have a nissan altima or you could have a benz. any sensible person would thank God for that nissan. anyone who is lucky enough to be able to buy and maintain a BMW, why not go for it?

and if you really can’t choose, go for a midrange car you can dress up or down and stop hurting yourself lol.